A lesson in love

People come into your life, and then they go. For me I have noticed lately, when people leave, I hear often they regret it.
I am not full of myself, it's just what I hear.
Years later, people locate me on facebook, text me, find me via friend of a friend. I hear all the time
"You are a good person, and I am sorry to not see you so much." or something like that.

It makes me laugh. All that time I wasted... all that time I wasted trying to be something I wasn't.

Embrace yourself, personality flaws, drawbacks, dorkiness, insecurities. They make you human. And people strive for that. People strive for the ability to say "This is me, who the hell are you?"

Those flaws make you one of a kind. If you stick to your guns and remain yourself, through all the terrible things people do, they regret it. If you listen to your heart and act as if you want other people to treat you, plain and simple, people remember you. It's a great boost to keep pushing to be a good person.

All I choose to be, all I want to be, all I have ever wanted to be, was the change I wanted to see in the world.
I used to strive to be something special, something different, something that people remembered, something that stood out in people's minds.
As soon as I gave up on trying to be something memorable I feel like I became just that. As soon as I felt like "Fuck 'em all", felt that deep down, people started caring or missing me when I wasn't around. And more important, better people filtered into my life.

All I have to say is that I am so, so happy the ones that are supposed to be gone are gone. I am happy they admit they are trying to recreate some good in their lives like me. People tell me often they want to be as good of a person that I am. And usually I have a terribly low self esteem about things like that. Being a good person, making people feel good, I feel like I am never doing enough...

As soon as you are yourself, people can't make up that. You either are, or you aren't

I know from experience, if you try to be like someone else it never works.

This sounds vain to me. But it's true. I am so sick of being insecure. It's just not me anymore. It's time YOU take a stand. It's time you love yourself, because no one else is going to if you don't. I take solace in the fact that there is no one else out there remotely as awesome as I am. No one can be me better than I can. Take pride in yourself. God does. God made you that way for a reason.